I will be doing regular readings of all my books from the last Ten years, in lieu of my new book "Coeval of the Hedonic" (A.Glass 2025) which needs to be settled for at least a month, before the readings will begin. Reading: "SATRAN KAEVON" (A.Glass 2017)

 

Later that night, Feldstein lying in her bed, propped up by her pillow against the bed headrest, holding a computer tablet – she recounts what Ainslee described to her, after having sex with Professor Sean Miller, the seizure. Why have a traumatic memory hidden from a possible physical trauma. A stoke? No, the side effects aren't there. There is no slurred speech, facial features were normal. It was not a stroke. She lifts her tablet typing in the search engine 'flash', 'light', 'neurological' the term Photophobia appears with additional links. Feldstein copies two of the selective links placing them in her email content section, she promptly sends the email to her private clinic address. Feldstein folds the protective cover over the tablet, she places it down onto her bedside table, pushing the pillow back down, she leans across and turns off the lamp on her bedside table.

The following morning Caitlin Feldstein awakes, checking her beside clock she notices that it's 8.30am, getting out of bed she walks across to the spare room, which is opposite hers. Knocking on the door, there is no answer, she then gently opens the bedroom door peering in. Feldstein sees a neatly made up bed. Walking to the kitchen, she notices a written message from Issy Ainslee.

Thanks for letting me stay, sorry, once again for last night. Hope I didn't worry you. Yes, I will get that scan. Have to finish a report today, will be flying out earlier than expected. Might not want to watch the news.

Love,
Issy

Feldstein places down Ainslee's note and lifts her phone checking for any messages, which there are none, walking across to where the kitchen table is, lifting the kettle, under the sink taps she fills it with water, thinking of what Ainslee said to her last night. Now convinced that she had a type of seizure. Filling the kettle with water, she places it down onto the store top. She also lifts the television controls.

"North Korea have tested their second ICBM, this time analysts have said that the successful launch and high attitude of the trajectory. That this type of missile could reach as far as New York. Although according to experts, they are not capable in attaching a nuclear warhead and have it successfully reenter the atmosphere. Although this could be matter of years or even sooner if the North Koreans receive assistance with their missile program from either Chinese or Russian scientists. A North Korean ICBM, if fast tracked with Chinese and Russian assistance, it may only be a matter of months until they have the capacity to deliver a nuclear payload that may reach America. In other news, the billionaire industrialist Ken Alaster, who owns amongst many other innovated companies, also runs the private space company Space Frontier has revealed that he is suffering from depression..."

The kettle boils as Feldstein turns off the television, she then places a single green leaf tea bag into a cup, pouring the hot water over the tea bag, she watches her movements. Placing the kettle back onto the stove, ensuring that the gas is turned off, she takes out the tea bag placing it onto the sink. Thinking back to the same actions as last night when she made the cup of tea for herself and Ainslee. Memories of prior actions she says to her self. How can you forget a trauma, from a possible seizure? If its origins are from an action. In Issy's case, sex, triggered the memory. She was traumatized by the vision of what she saw, as though she created something within a memory. A bright flash. Feldstein walks over to her laptop, typing in 'memory', 'memory glitch', 'false memories', 'trauma' in the search engine. A preview of a recorded video discussion appears under Feldstein's search requests. She clicks on the link

"Joining us for this presentation is Professor Don Phillips, the director of the newly established Mindthink Institute. A think-tank that looks at new research in regards to experimental human psychology. Professor Phillips could you please explain to the audience what a memory glitch is and what is this new research into this field of Psychology."
The Professor, an older man than the host, in his late fifties, leans forward smiling.
"Of course, yes, well a memory glitch also known as cryptomnesia needs to be explained in the sense what that terminology means in a simple term as a subconscious memory that, in most cases than not, is actually not a stored image from your own creation or ideas. In other words in that unconscious state of retrieving that idea, is by definition not an original memory. This is seen, in a psychological sense, as a memory glitch. The results as witnessed in case studies, was that the subjects were unable to distinguish between what they thought was as an original image or collection of events to what has occurred as memories that lie deep within the subconsciousness. As researchers we use the term Misattribution, which is divided into three components: cryptomnesia, false memories and confusion."
"This, of course with your current research has implications to what is an actually original idea, particularly in the sense of plagiarism in literature, movies and art."
"Yes, what is known is one of the main aspects of Misattribution, as discussed, is cryptomnesia which allows the false memories to be claimed as your own. Very tricky to unravel, when it appears within the hippocampus, which plays an extremely important role in memory, both short and long term. Within the process of information that is constantly been recorded in the brain, you will unconsciously store your events and recollections, in the case of cryptomnesia you end up also, as I mentioned, claiming them as your own. This is unintentional, as you struggle with assigning the sources to what is the actual memory. Thus, when it is then processed into action, say as a piece of art, music or writing. It appears to be yours. When it is a memory that was externally witnessed and stored."

Feldstein sips from her cup of tea as the clip finishes. She then looks outside of her apartment window. She thinks about the studio, near her office, that just opened and its proprietor Satran Kaevon. Checking the time on her laptop screen, she then gets up, taking off her t-shirt and pulling down her tracksuit pants she gathers them up and enters the bathroom. Placing them into the laundry basket she then removes her brief knickers, holding them up, throwing them into the open laundry basket. She stands naked in front of the shower. "It's not physically related trauma, although she is infertile. Caused by that distress? Misattribution? What Dr Ellis said about my visions. A desert setting, as a memorial, it is serene, but it's related to a personal memory. Not a false memory," Feldstein says to herself as she turns on the shower taps.

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Reading:  "SATRAIN KAEVON" (A.Glass 2017)